On Renee Nicole Good, Normalizing Murder When It's Not One of Your Own, and White Supremacist Terrorism

TW: Murder, domestic terrorism, white supremacist terrorism

ICE murdered Renee Nicole Good in Minneapolis yesterday because they know that they can. Even with multiple videos of the murder being shared across every form of media possible, showing that this was indeed an unnecessary, murderous act, ICE agents know that they can kill, kidnap, assault, harass, and terrorize communities across this country without facing any repercussions.

Y’all’s president and his cabinet have spent the last 24 hours gaslighting us, telling us that Renee tried to “run over an ICE agent” and that other citizens who witnessed a murder in real time were “paid actors.” If you’ve watched any of the videos of the incident, you know good and well that everything they’re trying to force you to accept is a lie. The male of pallor news cycle has also been on the “she deserved it” bandwagon, saying everything they can to paint Renee’s murder as justifiable.

If you’re Black, Brown, Indigenous, a person of color, and/or a member of the LGBTQIAA+ community?

That all sounds like another Thursday.

The current precedent is that anyone viewed as an emissary of white supremacist terrorism can murder and terrorize people they view as an affront to white supremacy in front of a crowd of citizens and then “Jedi mind trick” their way out of any consequences for their actions to the point that the majority of the public forgets about what happened in seven days or less. The truth is, none of this is new. This level of whiteness and bigotry has always driven the normalization of the harm of Black, Indigenous, and Latino communities, communities of color, and LGBTQIAA+ communities on this stolen land we live on.

And please don’t act like you didn’t know this.

If you’re a person of pallor, you’ve been hearing and seeing testimonials and video footage from Black, Brown, and Indigenous folx for most of your life. You’ve seen the pleas for help and support from communities being terrorized or murdered by white supremacy for decades. You’ve seen white supremacist terrorists take people’s breath away with knees to their necks, kick in their doors and gun them down in cold blood, hang melanated bodies from trees, conduct mass shootings at our gathering places and celebrations, and now be mobilized by your government to kidnap and kill. Some of y’all have marched, protested, pushed for your state representatives to do better, and have been legitimate allies in fighting for others, and I appreciate y’all. But real talk?

The rest of y’all didn’t start caring about the oppression and murder of others until your government started blatantly attacking, harming, terrorizing, and murdering people of pallor in the same ways they’ve been targeting, terrorizing, and killing non-white and non-hetero communities for over a century.

Renee Nicole Good’s murder should be mourned. Renee’s family and community deserve justice. Her murderer should be held accountable. But let’s call a spade a spade: it shouldn’t take people of pallor being endangered in the same ways that melanated and queer communities are endangered every damn day for people of pallor to give a damn about white supremacy and its harmful impacts. And the fact that so many of y’all don’t get it to the point where y’all are out here acting shocked that something like this could happen, and co-opting the “Say Her Name” hashtag, a hashtag created by Black communities to amplify those murdered at the hands of white supremacist policing and terrorists who are regularly ignored by white supremacist media and social mores, to talk about Renee shows how you’re more uncomfortable with the fact that you couldn’t ignore a woman of pallor being murdered in the same ways you ignore everyone else being murdered more than anything else.

We’ve grown tired of asking people of pallor to show up for what seems like time immemorial. Most of us have just stopped asking because what’s the point? But now that the white supremacists are essentially killing and terrorizing their own, how long will y’all care? How long will y’all stay in the fight for justice and safety for everyone in your community, not just people of pallor? You’re angry about what happened. Will you carry that anger and energy into the next time a Black, Brown, or Indigenous person is murdered by white supremacist terrorists? Or will most of y’all be on to the next thing by next week?

We already know the answer.

We won’t be holding our breath waiting for you to prove us wrong.

(Sidenote: I haven’t watched any of the videos and do not plan on watching them. I have a strict personal policy around watching footage of anyone being murdered. If you do watch or have watched any of the videos out there of Ms. Good’s murder, please take care of yourself.)

On Genocidal Holidays, Pallor Fragility, and Willful Ignorance

I haven't wished people a "Happy Thanksgiving" for years. I don't think this federal holiday deserves well-wishes for obvious (terroristic, white supremacist, big colonizer energy) reasons. Instead, when people who celebrate the holiday wish me a Happy Thanksgiving or ask me what I'm doing for the holiday, I state that I don't observe the holiday - no extra context or nothing, because I expect most adults to get it without me spelling it out. I then mention that I hope they're celebrating this holiday with intentionality and an understanding of the historical context of the holiday and its branding.

And whew, y'all.

People of pallor do not like it when I say that. Not one bit.

You should see their reactions, y'all. They either say something like, "Well, I hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving anyway, Pharoah" with that Karen/Kevin energy with their face all contorted with derision or find a way to get away from me as soon as possible and end the conversation they initiated. And it's funny to me that they do this, because it proves that many people of pallor can only exist and operate in a space that caters to them willingly ignoring how harmful so many things in pallor culture, society, and history really are.

You know you can have some turkey on Thursday with your family while acknowledging how funky Thanksgiving as a holiday and concept really is, right? It doesn't have to take away from the meal.

You can be thankful for the blessings you have while also having the fortitude to digest and understand history and educate others on how harmful this week's festivities can be for Native and Indigenous communities and tribes.

It doesn't have to be one or the other.

Knowledge and empathy should always trump feeling cozy in ignorance.

Just sayin'.

And most of y'all's turkeys be dry anyway, so is being willfully ignorant and eatin' unmoisturized meat worth it?

On Clay, Louisiana, and Being Careful About Who You Choose To Represent You

TW: Mentions of sexual abuse, rape, sex trafficking, pedophilia.

The House chamber has overwhelmingly passed a bipartisan bill that would compel the Justice Department to release all its Epstein case files. The vote? 427-1. The one holdout? GOP Rep. Clay Higgins of Louisiana. Why?

He's worried about the innocent people this could hurt.

You know, the innocent people who were physically, mentally, and psychologically harmed, sexually assaulted, trafficked, and raped, who have been seeking justice for YEARS.

Oh wait - he's not talking about those innocent people, is he? Because if he were, he would've heard their pleas for justice and wouldn't have voted no.

Hey, Louisianans: I hope y'all finally take the time to make Clay feel VERY welcome when he gets back home, seeing how so many of y'all are as invested in getting these Esptein files out to the public as the rest of us, and this seems to be the only thing right now most of us are in solidarity about.

I mean, he's been voting against your best interests since y'all elected him and is a regular keynote speaker with such "wonderful organizations" as the Oath Keepers and the Three Percenters, which should truly be disqualifiers for y'all when it comes to voting for his ass. Still, nothing has seemed to push y'all to boot Clay from office, so we'll take what we can get.

Vote these horrible creatures out of office, y'all. Your vote can change your city, state, and this country for the better. It is one of the truly pivotal powers we have as the citizenry.

They ain't out here tryin' to gerrymander districts and voting maps for no reason.

On Megyn and White Apologism

TW: mentions of pedophilia, sex trafficking, harm.

"I know somebody very close to this case…Jeffrey Epstein, in this person's view, was not a pedophile…He was into the barely legal type, like he liked 15-year-old girls…He wasn’t into like 8-year-olds…There's a difference between a 15-year-old and a 5-year-old."

What you just read came out of the mouth of weak-sauce woman of pallor and faux investigative journalist Megyn Kelly. Megyn Kelly thought this morning that, after seeing the dozens of email excerpts floating around out there as well as the mountains of evidence showing that Jeffrey Epstein was a sex trafficker and pedophile, today was the day to grace the world with this horrific take on her raggedy-ass podcast.

This right here is an impeccable illustration of one of the many instances where white supremacy, as a concept, action, and movement, has always been absolutely bonkers to me.

You see, white supremacy is an exercise in apologism: whiteness traumatizes, hurts, or kills someone, then expects to be forgiven after a half-hearted apology. And when the forgiveness doesn't come because forgiveness hasn't been earned or deserved? That's when people of pallor and systems of pallor begin spinning the situation, making up excuses for why the pallor colonizer terrorism and violence someone has been on the receiving end of "isn't that bad" and pushing that we all agree with that narrative. And if you don't get on board with the narrative? Gaslighting and violence are in your future. Don't believe me?

Go and ask anyone who isn't a part of the white supremacist culture model due to their melanin or beliefs, and they'll tell you a story about how this has played out for them or someone they love. Hell, some of us could write you a whole book of our experiences.

Let's keep it 100: there is no difference between a 5-year-old girl, an 8-year-old girl, and a 15-year-old girl when we're discussing acts of sex trafficking and pedophilia. NONE. NADA. No difference. No excuse. It is all abuse of vulnerable underage people, people we are supposed to protect from predatory acts of any kind. Period. No discussion.

Anyone who thinks otherwise and tries to spin these clear facts that I keep hoping we can all agree on to protect themselves, their own best interests, the interests of wealthy people who could give two craps about them who happen to have been long-time friends with horrible human beings they deify and admire, or the person they voted for to be President of the United States is just as dangerous as those initiating these acts.

And I don't apologize for saying that because there's nothing to apologize for.

Supporting harmful and toxic behavior and trying to "rationalize" it or explain it away is vile, disgusting, and a clear and present danger to others.

And it's one of the engines that keeps white supremacy running.

And so many of y'all are literally more than willing to continue being the gasoline that keeps the old jalopy moving.

On Seeking Forgiveness and Being Undeserving Of It

It's funny how people didn't care that their vote would increase the cost of or outright eliminate healthcare options, terrorize communities with masked bootleg police and the U.S. military, devastate the job market, increase the cost of living, and dismantle and eliminate food assistance programs and other social services for millions of people because they somehow thought that Black folx, Brown folx, Indigenous folx, trans folx, and immigrants would be the only people harmed...until they found themselves also being hurt because, you know, all of the things mentioned above impact everyone and not just a couple of communities voters felt were expendable and disposable.

It's also funny how these same voters begged and pleaded like Keith Sweat for their president to save them for months on end, only to realize late last month that they would not be saved because their president had essentially used them to increase his wealth and power.

Hilarious.

Now, suddenly, it's y'all begging forgiveness on TikTok and Instagram for "mistakenly" voting for y'all's president (some of y'all in the last three presidential elections) and putting us in this autocracy.

Now it’s, "I made a mistake" and "We have to stick together."

Y'all can miss me with all of that.

I can care about you as a person, even if you don't care about me and mine, because I don't want to see anyone hurting and struggling. I'm a humanist and an empathic being. Even if you hate me, I want you to be okay. But let's keep it 100: you did not make a mistake. You knew what you were doing. All of you did. So nah, we are not "sticking together." I do not forgive, and I definitely will not forget.

Y'all need to learn that empathy only goes so far.

I do not have it in me to forgive you for willingly hoping others would suffer so you could thrive under a hateful regime. And I know I'm not the only one feeling this way.

Y'all expect people you harm to forgive you because you live in a country where white supremacy has trained y'all to abuse others and expect forgiveness. It ain't happenin' this time, and a bunch of y'all are starting to see this, and you're unraveling. A part of me feels sorry for you, for your despair. But it's a small part, because y'all have made it very clear that this was supposed to be your "survival of the fittest" moment and you're realizing that a whole bunch of y'all ain't the fittest. And knowing that probably sucks. But...well...

I hope that you survive what you've inflicted on all of us, because that's what I want for everyone. And most of y'all will survive because of the work and community programs created and led by the people you were hoping would be harmed by all of this. But that's all that you'll get from me, and all you should get from them. That's more than enough. And if you have a problem with hearing that?

Better go and embrace some of that greatness you voted for to keep you fed and wealthy while "liberals" decide whether to help y'all at all.